Monday, December 19, 2011

Day 19 - Missing something

I feel like I am missing something.

You ever wake up feel like there is something missing in your life. I did on Sunday. I think it started with the idea that I would be missing my mother-in-law once she get's back on the plane to head back east for the holidays. I truly enjoyed her company.

Or, maybe it is the idea of missing my family for christmas this year. I just love being around the gang of coo-coo's. No matter how imperfect my family is, just hearing my mother's loud voice, the clicking and clacking of change on the dining room table while everyone argues over who is cheating during the poker game or how everytime they play there is always a new rule out. Hah. I am going to miss my brother's deep voice and laughter, my sister's awesome cooking and my nieces and nephew. My list can continue on an on..

Luckily I will have my little west coast family to keep my mind off my feelings and I can say that I am not the only person missing something or someone this year. On another note, I am curious to know if there is someting deeper that I am missing.

Missing truly is a human condition and a very normal one at that. I guess excepting what it is I cannot control is a stronger emotion to deal with than to actually have to do something to change it. 

1 comment:

  1. Awww girlie this really touched me so....I feel an empty space every time the holiday season comes here too :(

    Reading your post just makes me think about me too. Even though I have family here I still feel somewhat empty. I think I really need to do some soul searching and figure it out....

    Keep those 31 days of change coming because I'm behind schedule but I'm following you :)

    Love ya and miss ya girl