I need to get over the fact of that there are things I really don't want to do but need to do.
On Saturday, I truly did not want to go to my company's Christmas party. I've been avoiding the idea for sometime now. For some reason or another, I was just not feeling this year's party and I am not sure exactly why I feel this way. During the day, me and my mother-in-law (visiting from NJ) went shopping for about 8 hours without breaking for lunch. You heard it right, 8 hours on our feet, two malls and only bought about 1.5% of gifts. Can I say that shopping really tanked this year. Stores had absolutely nothing. Wondering if it's best to just shop online.
In the meantime, I didn't mind the long day of shopping I figured it would tire me out enough that I would cancel on going to the party later in the night. However, my guest who loves to party was like "you have to go" and so, I took my time preparing with little desire or effort and scrambled out the house to be fashionably late to the opera house party. The function which was beautifully set to the theme of "Phantom of the Opera" turned out great. The music, the casino playing, my co-workers and drinks were all so fun.
I should be surprised of my behavior for not wanting to go to this thing but maybe there is something lingering inside me that I haven't made my mind over that I was procrastinating on. I will continue to soul search and figure out exactly what that feeling is but for now, I need to get going on things and stop the stalling.